Spacecake!!!!!!!!

az ye cake shoro shod!
az ye khastegi shayad! az ye rooz-maregiyeh bi-tafavoot !
shayadam yejoor farar bud, farar az fekr, az gozashteh, az hal, az ayandeh,az moshkelat, az adama, az KHOD !
tajrobeye khubi bud,ham hasty o ham nisty. ham bidari o ham khabi, to bidari ba cheshme baaz,khab mibini!
ajab mixi bud,ajib bud,hayajaan bud,jadid bud,khob bud...mese rozaye avale to!
vasashoon ye cake kharidamo avoordam ke ina ham shabe tatilishon hal konan, shayadam lahzee azad beshan az in esaratii ke modatist asiresh shodan.ba che dardesari beheshon resondam ke shabeshon avaz beshe ba ye cake! vali na khodeshon!
kash yad begirim ke ba chizaye ke mikhan hale maro avaz konan HAL konim, na inke baees beshan ke halemon gerefteh beshe, kash bedone ejazeh az harime khodemon paa jelo nazarim, kash bekhatere ye gaaz az spacecakemon sedamono ro ham boland nakonim!
kash hal konim ba hallemon...

Raazhaye Yek Zaan...

shodeh t abe hal be in fekr konid ke chera ma zanha hamishe ye raazi pishe khodemon darim?
ya chera hamishe migan raazhaye yek zan! ya masalan zani ke razi bar del dasht! ya masalan sokote yek zan!
vaghty fekr mikonam ,az jaaye ke khodam ham yek zan hastam be in natijeh miresam ke chon hichvaght be zanan foorsate harf zadan dadeh nashodeh!
harvaght zani khaste harfe delesho bezane ya ba zarb o shatm hamrah budeh, ya be sokot davat shodeh.
khob in harfa chi mishan? koja miran? pishe ki bayad khali beshan?
Dele Zan vase hichki mohem nist...ta zamoni ke khone pedari hasty ke bayad hojb o hayaye dokhtaranero hefz koni o bish az ye dokhtar harfi be zabon nayari, vaghty ham ke be donyaye zananegi vared mishi,baz ham shakhsi be esme shohar forsate in harfaro azat migireh,halla be har dalili...ya gheyrat ya taasoob ya farhang!
kheili az ma zanha bedoone inke harfemono bezanim be ghezavat keshideh mishim, bedone inke chizi begim vasamon hokm sader mishe, bedone inke az haghemon defa konim mahkoom mishim, va che dardnaake ke bedone inke harfemono bezanim az in diyaare faani mahv mishim!
pas in hame goosh be darde chi mikhoreh? in hame edeaye refaghat koja rafte? eshgh chi shodeh? pas ma zanha koja o kei o be che kasi mitoonim raaze delemono begim?
Raazhaye Yeek Zan...

...Mondam o Sokhtan o Sakhtan hame Yadegaare Eshghe,
Enteghaam Az To Gereftan Kaare man Nist, Kaare Eshghe...

in rooza bi-rangan...
ghadima age khakestary ham bud baz khob bud ke rangi bud vali in rooza rang digeh manayee nadare.
mikham ye jaabe medade rangi begiram o roozamo az in be baad KHODAM rang konam, bedoon vaseteye kasi ya chizi. faghat khodam, khode khode khodam!
bayad beshe,midonam ke mishe,mikham ke beshe.inghad mohkamam ke mitoonam 2bare boland besham o dobare besham hamoni ke budam, to ham mitooni,bavar kon,age bekhay mitooni.faghat bayad bekhay.
YA HAGH

Eshtebahe man bavare negahe to bud...

ma adama az bachegi eshtebah mikonim, eshtebahate bachegi shayad ba ye Bebakhshid,jobran mishod, eshtebahate no-jawooni shayad ba ye Ghalat kardam jobran mishod,
vali eshtebahate dorani ke be unvane ye maghze pokhte shenakhte shodi ba hichi jobran nemishe hataa ba MARG!

Zendegi ye khateras,kashki az khodemon ye khatere khob be-ja bezarim!!!
javabe in "Aaaah" keshidane az tahe ghalbo yeroozi bayad jaavab dad, kashiki betoonim javabgoo bashim vase har yedoone az in "Aaah" keshidana !

Ya Hagh

Paeez bi sedatar az hamishe umade...
fasle ashegha, fasle del-dadeha, fasle jodayeeha...
va cheghad inbaar bi sar o seda vojode khodesho ba bargrizanesh ellam kard.
payeez fasle mane, fasli ke cheshm be in donyaye kasif vaa kardam, fasli ke ashegh shodam, fasli ke khatereha toosh bidad mikone.
mikham emsaal milaade tanamo vatan basham, mikham emsaaal dar kenare tanha eshgham nezaaregare gozashte zaman basham,
ba hameye vojod parr mizanam be soyat eshghe man.montazeram bash, ke in payeez-zade be didaret miyad.
ashegha...in shabaye payeeziro daste-kam nagirin....poor az harfan in shaba...poor az eshghan....poor az ....

in shaba...amman az in shaba.
shabaye sarde tanhayee,
shabaye sarde tolani,
shabayee ke khaterat mesle bakhtak be joonam oftadan.

khodaya raaahayaaaaaaaaaaaaam kon.

cheghad ma adama ajibim!
vase karhaye khodemon ham nemitoonim dalil biyarim!
masalan vaghty kheili delemon vase kasi tang mishe, be jaye inke ebraze mohebat konim, shoro mikonim be ghoor zadan ta dava beshe!
ya masalan vaghty mikhaym khodemono vase kasi loos konim, shoro mikonim be gele kardan ke digeh mano doost nadari!
khodemon ham ba khodemon dargiri darim, vaghty ham ke mishinim fekr mikonim migim in che kari b ud digeh man kardam!
midoon jalebiye ghazyeh kojast??!
jalebish ine ke ma ke khodemon vase karhaye khodemon nemitoonim dalil biyarim, shoro mikonim taze karhaye digaroonro ham enteghad mikonim, mani mikonim, sarkoft mizanim o khlase mishim ye paa inkaare!
akh ke in Adaaamaaaa...

In rooza jooz hasrat chize digee nadaran, hasrate kochiktarin lahzeharo mikhorim o dam nemizanim, har shab be omide roozi behtar mikhabim o sobh ke mishe mibinim rooz az noe o roozi az noe!
vaghty fekr mikonam migam kash chizi be naame ehsass nadashtim ke injoori viroonemon nakone vali bishtar ke fekr mikonam mibinam hame arzeshe in zendegi be hess o eshgheshe! halla hesab kon inaro ham nadashteh bashim!

vaghty deltang bashi o delet gerefteh bashe o arezooye azize deleto dashteh bashi,,,mosalaman hazyoon ziyad migi, allan ham az un moghehast ke mokham daagh kardeh o hichi halim nemishe, agha jan DELAAAAAAAAAM TAAANG SHODE VASAT NIMAYE man :(

Nimaye man roozaye bi-to budano nemishe harjoori sar kard...

che roozayee bud...vase hamishe khatere shod.

ajab entezari bud...
ajab ezterabi dasht...

saathaye entezar koshande bud, montazere ye telephone neshastan inghadar sakht bud ke gahi vaghta nafas keshidan az yadam miraft!
belakhare baad az 2rooz ke be ghadre 2ghaarn gozzasht, khabar behem resid!va che shirin asst lahzeye vesaal!
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nemidonam, bavarehs kami moshkele, it is too good to be true !
midoni vaghty ye omr be khatere in lahze zendegi kardi, vaghty halla jelooot mibinish nemmitooni bavar koni, hamash fekr mikoni ke har lahze mishe az in khabe khoshe shirin bidar beshi, tars az inke hameye in lahzeha ye royaye shirin bashe, ya inke ye doroghe maherane!

tars az inke bad az in hame vaght ke behesh residi halla ye az hameja bi khabar peydsa beshe o bekhad khoshbakhtito bedoozde!!!
tars az lahzeye didar, delhore dare khafam mikonoe, hamash migam nakone ghalbam taghate lahze didaro nadashteh bashe.
nemidonam chera yehoo inghad tarso shodam,
gole man chizi be didaremon namonde...daram miyam...hameye vojodam dar parvaze...
badjoori bi-ghararm in rooza...

ki fekr mikard ye roozi barghe in cheshma ,hassrat beshe?

chi begam...
Gaahi vaghta ba ye khabar, ye telefoon, ye eshare,,,zendegiye adam az in roo e un roo mishe!in rooza hale khodamo nemifahmam, harchi bishtar fekr mikonam,kamtar natijeh migiram, be ghoole adama"gooh-gije"gereftam.to rooyaye khodam, khodamo to jadeye shomal mibinam ke sarkhoosh o azad ba musice delkhaham bi-maghsad daram miroonam. akh ke ye chizaye pish o paa oftade roozi vase adam arezo mishan, akh ke in dele tangam marham mikhad.kash mishod etemad kard dobare, kash mishod zendegio az daricheye cheshmane to did, kash mishod be in roohe sarkeshe assi kami eshgh o omid dad.delam badjoor gerefte....kash midonesty!

Aan ke migooyad dostat daram, dele andohgine shabisst ke mahtabash ra mijooyad!ey eshgh....ey eshgh chehreye abiyat peyda nist !
ta halla shodeh ke beshini o ye nigah be tahe tahe delet bendazi? shode ba khodet vase ye lahze ham ke shodeh ro-raast bashi? shodeh beshini be khodet fekr koni? be MANe daroonet!in kar ham jesarat mikhad ham joraat!ke vaghty haghayeghro lokht o berahne didi o lams kardi, betooni ghabooleshon koni, betooni ba khode khodet kenar biyay...vali khoda nayare un rooziro ke vaghty ba khodet khalvat kardi, sedaye shekastane MANe daroonetro ham beshnavi !!! sedaye shekastane khodet dardnaaaktarin sedayee ke mitoni tajroobeh koni, bavar koni ke to ham shekasty! are khode khode khodet!ta halla shodeh ke beshini o ye nigah be tahe delet bendazi??!

Ajaab ezdehami bud, forodgaho migam!hame dashtan talash mikardan ke be moghe be parvazeshon beresaan, che eshtiyaghi to chehreha bud,,che omidi to cheshma !mesle ye mojasame vastadeh budam ye gooshe o ba negahi shishee be in mellat negah mikardam...umadeh budam dame Gate Iran Air ! dashtam mosafer raheiye vatan mikardam.in dafe azize delam bud ke dasht miraft o che hesse badi behem dast dadeh bud.be hame un adama hasoodim mishod, be inke una ta chand saate digeh mehrabad hastan o man mese hamishe to otagham,,,be inke che omidi to cheshmeshone o negahe man cheghad sarde !vaghty maman raft...harfi vase goftan nabud...engar az ghabl gharar gozashteh budim ke ba raftanesh sokoto baghal konim !delam havaye shomalo karde...boosho az inja hess mikonam...